This blog post isn't easy to write. I've been putting off sharing why I'm no longer vegan and what that means for the blog. Trigger warning- this post does talk about eating disorders.
Deciding not to be vegan anymore was one of the hardest decisions that I've had to make.
I usually don't share a lot of personal information on the blog, but I want to be fully transparent with you.
I first when vegan when I was 19. I had many health problems as a child. When I adopted a vegan diet, my health problems seemed to go away.
Fast forward to last year, I started to develop some health problems. I had a very healthy pregnancy two years ago. After I stopped breast feeding, something changed and I started craving seafood and I fought it for months. I think after breast feeding something changed within my body.
I never craved meat or eggs when I was vegan prior to my pregnancy. This was such a weird feeling for me.
When I became vegan, it became my identity. I changed who I was as a person. How could I no longer be vegan? When I thought about first introducing animal products, I didn't right away because of other people. What would people think?
I have a food blog dedicated to vegan recipes. Many vegans can be judgmental and I didn't want to upset anyone for my personal choices.
After months of debating, I finally started incorporating animal products into my diet.
I did a trial run to see how I felt and if this was something that I was fully committed to. After reflecting on this new change, I realized that being vegan was connected to my binge easter disorder. It was very easy to control my ED when I was vegan because when I was out to eat or at parties, I could just say that I couldn't eat anything because I'm vegan.
I now realize that is just no way to live and I need to learn how to deal with my ED which has been really bad the last few years. I suffer from depression and anxiety and when my anxiety is very high, it triggers my binge eating disorder.
I'm now learning to find food freedom and eat intuitively and I feel so much better.
what does this mean for the blog?
I thought about stopping the blog or creating a new blog, but I didn't want to have to do that. I love sharing recipes and want to continue doing so because it brings me such joy. I thought about just continuing to share vegan recipes but I want the blog to reflect the recipes that my family is currently eating.
I will still share lots of vegan recipes, but now I will start incorporating recipes with meat and dairy.
I realize that you might want to unfollow me if you don't want to see non-vegan recipes, I completely understand.
I'm looking forward to this new journey and chapter in my life.
Thank you for listening,